It's so Hard
About the single
It's So Hard was released in the spring of 1998 as the third official single from Anouk's debut album Together Alone. Following the enormous success of Nobody's Wife, expectations were high, as many wondered whether Anouk could deliver another major rock hit.
While Nobody's Wife focused mainly on personal frustration and confrontation, It's So Hard leaned more heavily into Anouk's raw alternative rock sound. The song stood out for its heavy guitars, energetic live feel and powerful vocal performance.
The videoclip for It's So Hard was notable for being the first Anouk video to prominently feature her full live band. This emphasized the growing importance of her live reputation, which became increasingly strong during festivals and club performances throughout 1998.
Although the single received heavy airplay on TMF and MTV Europe, It's So Hard did not achieve the same commercial success as Nobody's Wife. Nevertheless, the track became a fan favourite and remained a regular part of Anouk's live performances for many years.
The first pressing of the maxi-single temporarily included a free T-shirt. The single also featured exclusive live recordings of It's So Hard and Mood Indigo, recorded on 14 October 1997 at Stairway to Heaven in Utrecht.
Tracklist
4 tracksClick a title to view the lyrics
That I sometimes feel inside
And I'm figuring out just what it is
That makes me feel so small
Is it you, that hurts me when I give myself
Every day and every night
Am I too blind to see that it doesn't work out
Did I really ask too much of you baby
Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is
Do you mean to say
It's all so hard, It's so hard
It's all so hard, It's so hard
As I search for an answer, I see the clear blue sky
And I know that you're the one to blame
And I feel so naïve
When you say that our love to you was just a game
I dream, my dream, I'm sane, I'm insane
Oh, please don't, please don't speak to me that way
Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is
Do you mean to say
It's all so hard, It's so hard
It's all so hard, It's so hard
Damned it's so hard, why you're so hard
Why you're so hard, It's tearing me apart
Do I want to see
Why I'm wonderin' every morning, who's it gonna be today
Staring in the mirror, come tell me, who's that under my skin
And what's the reason they're here for
Tell me what is my own true face
Tell me what is my own true face
But hey here I come
I'm the show's main attraction
I'm a beautiful creature
That's what I am, yeah that's what I am
But the other side of me
I can't explain why I've become
Negative as can be
I'm wonderin' where it's coming from
I know I can't do without it, sure makes me what I am
So I will never stop believin'
In that I love myself someday
In that I love myself someday
But hey here I come
I'm the show's main attraction
I'm a beautiful creature
Yeah that's what I am, Hey that's what I am
That I sometimes feel inside
And I'm figuring out just what it is
That makes me feel so small
Is it you, that hurts me when I give myself
Every day and every night
Am I too blind to see that it doesn't work out
Did I really ask too much of you baby
Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is
Do you mean to say
It's all so hard, It's so hard
It's all so hard, It's so hard
As I search for an answer, I see the clear blue sky
And I know that you're the one to blame
And I feel so naïve
When you say that our love to you was just a game
I dream, my dream, I'm sane, I'm insane
Oh, please don't, please don't speak to me that way
Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is
Do you mean to say
It's all so hard, It's so hard
It's all so hard, It's so hard
Damned it's so hard, why you're so hard
Why you're so hard, It's tearing me apart
Your eyes in a misty dream a million miles away
And in my ear you whisper my name
Just like in some old news flash
From light years ago
Van Dyke's on the slide trombone
Through the smoke of the party room
Your teeth like the ivory coast
Start singin' my favourite song
And it happen' to be mood indigo
Mood indigo
I just go weak when I hear mood indigo
Could last for weeks until I decide to wake up
Take off my make up
Holding on to my heart
Smokin' them downhill
In a room number thirteen
Tryin' to stretch my luck again
Down the corridor your footsteps echo against the wall
My man of mystery, my date with infinity
Tonight I'm gonna sacrifice, for the first time in my life
Make it all come back to me, like an old forgotten dream
Van Dyke's on the slide trombone
Through the smoke of the party room
Your teeth like the ivory coast
Start singin' my favourite song
And it happen' to be mood indigo
Mood indigo, I just go weak when I hear mood indigo
It could last for weeks until I decide to wake up
Completely lost in my mood indigo
That I sometimes feel inside
And I'm figuring out just what it is
That makes me feel so small
Is it you, that hurts me when I give myself
Every day and every night
Am I too blind to see that it doesn't work out
Did I really ask too much of you baby
Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is
Do you mean to say
It's all so hard, It's so hard
It's all so hard, It's so hard
As I search for an answer, I see the clear blue sky
And I know that you're the one to blame
And I feel so naïve
When you say that our love to you was just a game
I dream, my dream, I'm sane, I'm insane
Oh, please don't, please don't speak to me that way
Do you mean to tell me that's the way it is
Do you mean to say
It's all so hard, It's so hard
It's all so hard, It's so hard
Damned it's so hard, why you're so hard
Why you're so hard, It's tearing me apart
Do I want to see
Why I'm wonderin' every morning, who's it gonna be today
Staring in the mirror, come tell me, who's that under my skin
And what's the reason they're here for
Tell me what is my own true face
Tell me what is my own true face
But hey here I come
I'm the show's main attraction
I'm a beautiful creature
That's what I am, yeah that's what I am
But the other side of me
I can't explain why I've become
Negative as can be
I'm wonderin' where it's coming from
I know I can't do without it, sure makes me what I am
So I will never stop believin'
In that I love myself someday
In that I love myself someday
But hey here I come
I'm the show's main attraction
I'm a beautiful creature
Yeah that's what I am, Hey that's what I am
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