Paradise and Back Again
About the album
Paradise and Back Again is Anouk's ninth studio album, released in 2014, and presents a varied collection of fourteen tracks shaped by both musical contrast and personal reflection.
Rather than following one narrowly defined direction, the album moves through different songs and moods, matching Anouk's own description of the record as a set of tracks that go in several directions.
In interviews about the album, Anouk described many of the songs as letters to herself: life lessons that made her wonder what she would have done if someone had told her those things earlier.
The album also looks back on personal subjects from her past. Songs such as Daddy and Wish He Could See It All are connected to her father and her changing view of her family history.
Breathe was written after Anouk received heavy criticism and threats for speaking out against Zwarte Piet, making it one of the album's most directly socially charged songs.
In that sense, Paradise and Back Again stands as both a wide-ranging and personal release within her catalogue, combining contrast across the tracklist with reflection on earlier experiences.
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15 tracks · 54:42Click a title to view the lyrics
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
I guess that too much generosity
Is making people take you for a fool
And at every opportunity
They'll even try to get some more from you
So they'll cheat and lie
But I win, let God deal with the things they do
'Cause when they get their hands on all that gold and paper
They forget to say thank you
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
But will money bring the things they want
And does it solve the problems that they face
'Cause when everything is set and done
They will find out it's another day
Full of emptiness and lies and they can
Grab as much as they can
But it will never buy the one seat in heaven.
When money rules man
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Cold blackhearted golddiggers
Money's never bought me anything
I said nothing, no nothing at all
On her own, scarred inside, she's a loner
Nobody can hear her crying at night
And see that all her smiles are tears
As she wears a mask to hide all her lies
To comfort all the fears
But when the sun's starting to fade
It doesn't matter anyway
'Cause tonight, all the men in the street will tell her
That she is beautiful
She's beautiful
She's beautiful
She's beautiful
So beautiful
She's beautiful
She's a lonely girl
With cold hard eyes, who doesn't know what's right
Beyond any doubt wants to break out and live another life
I'm not saying it won't be very easy, but you have to understand
All she needs is someone to set her free
And take her heart with gentle hands
But when the sun's starting to fade
It doesn't matter anyway
'Cause tonight all the men in the street will tell her
That she is beautiful
She's beautiful
She's beautiful
She's beautiful
So beautiful
She's beautiful
That's why I blocked my heart
And chained it to the wall
'Cause you haven't been there at all
In time our house became a place
Where the wrongs were right
And the rights were wrong
With too much drama and pain
Tell me are you proud of who I am
Can you please help me understand
Why you couldn't love me back
Forgiveness ain't that hard to grasp
Daddy I need to hear you say
I never meant to hurt you
Babygirl you've gotta believe me
I never meant to break your heart
I just wanted to love you
But somehow I didn't know how to
I still blame myself
Unable to receive the love and affection from you
Like a daughter should, it did far more damage than good
Holding grudges are a waste
Life is way too short
And I just wanna let go
Of all the things that I can't change
Tell me are you proud of who I am
Can you please help me understand
Why you couldn't love me back
Forgiveness ain't that hard to grasp
Daddy I need you here, you say
I never meant to hurt you
Baby girl, you've gotta believe me
I never meant to break your heart
I just wanted to love you
But somehow I didn't know how to
I still blame myself
If I had just one more day
No more promises were made
I would hold you tight
And tell you I love you anyway
If I had just one more day
No more promises were made
I would hold you tight
And tell you I love you anyway
I never meant to hurt you
Baby girl, you've gotta believe me
I never meant to break your heart
I just wanted to love you
But somehow I didn't know how to
I still blame myself
You should've been there, you should've been there for me
You shouldn't have cared for me
Where were you baby
I don't know where I would go, I truly don't know
Where would I get the strength
Words ain't enough baby for me to say, how much it killed me though
I wouldn't be able to breathe anymore, if I would see you go
But one of us ain't got no feelings
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Better not wipe us out today
I've been a cheater, a man-eater
You knew I was no good
What can I say, I'm ready for change
Let that be understood
I want you to tell me I'm still in your heart, more than the day before
There's gotta be something that I can do, that make you love me more
One of us ain't got no feelings
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Better not wipe us out today
Once upon a dream
Memories meant nothing
And now they're all that I have left today
Started off as friends
Thinking this would never end
But you have throw it all away
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Don't wipe us out, wipe us out
Better not wipe us out today
Is he hiding behind the moon
'Cause I could use somebody who will treat me right
Who's shouting I love you too
No, I cannot wait any longer
Won't you please help me find my man
Where is the one who protect me from harm
Who loves me and understands
And if it's not happening anytime soon
Then just fool me
Looking for someone to love
Looking for someone to love
Looking for someone to love
Looking for someone to love
Baby I'm trying so hard to be content
With my life the way it is
Still there's a short time for me that is left
And it takes so much more than it gives
All alone on too many nights
Lost inside all my hopes and dreams
Longing for someone to hold in my arms
But what never can be it seems
And if it's not happening anytime soon
Then just fool me
Looking for someone to love
Looking for someone to love
Looking for someone to love
Looking for someone to love
Someone to love
Someone to love
I am gonna love
And will be loved again
I need someone to love
I hold you gently
When we watch the sun go down, it's heavenly
As you begin to cry
I say I love you
And that we will meet again someday, I know it's true
As birds fly by
Stars are lighting up tonight
Your hand in mine
When we say our last goodbye
Fire in the sky
Makes me feel so full of peace
To feel you with me
'Cause we have nothing more to fear, nothing to hope
I see you take your one last breath
I want you to know
That you are free to leave my love, now let it go
As birds fly by
Stars are lighting up tonight
Your hand in mine
When we say our last goodbye
Fire in the sky
And so you pray for inner light
I know you're feeling left behind
But please, don't say that nothing's ever right
'Cause every now and then somebody will just come along to take you out of the light
Don't try to make them love you, never cherish wrong thoughts
Don't criticize
'Cause some of us ain't got no joy
They ain't got no love
Yeah they ain't got no life
Heaven is what you create
Just think something good
And you'll begin to rise
And don't look back at yesterday
It's understood
That if you see you'll find
Every now and then somebody will just come along to take you out of the light
Don't try to make them love you, never cherish wrong thoughts
Don't criticize
That some of us ain't got no joy
They ain't got no love
Yeah they ain't got no life
I feel for them
I feel badly for them
'Cause they're missing out on life
That's no life
Born and raised in the suburbs
Became a rock 'n roll singer
Tryin' to find my way going uptown
Hard work and determination
I never asked for anything
No higher education
Stood up, tired of waiting
Too many choices and illusions
Smack flow just to survive
All clues but no solutions
Struggle each day just to stay alive
It ain't just image I create
Don't fill your judgement full with hate
It ain't worth it, it ain't worth it
I'm that true blond proud wigger
Born and raised in the suburbs
Became a rock 'n roll singer
Tryin' to find my way going uptown
Bring on that revolution
My kids brown sugared skin
People jumping to conclusions
Letting me know I was made to sin
So done with moderation
You look around, but you never look up
No intelligent conversation
I'll eat dirt but I won't shut up
It ain't just image I create
Don't fill your judgement full with hate
It ain't worth it, it ain't worth it
I'm that true blond proud wigger
Born and raised in the suburbs
Became a rock 'n roll singer
Tryin' to find my way going uptown
Put over my head
And nearly every night I wake up
Gasping for air
As you slowly dug a grave
So you could bury me alive
And I see you suffocate in dreams and in life
Breathe in
Gotta breathe out
No fear
'Cause they don't come around
Breathe in
Breathe out
I'll be alright
And lay my burdens down
God will you forgive them
For they failed a leap of faith
Take away the pain that blinds them
Teach them how to love instead of hate
Don't they see that love's for free
This thought's got a hold on me
Despite the crap you put me through
I can say I still got love for you
Breathe in
Gotta breathe out
With no fear
No they won't come around
Breathe in
And breathe out
I'll be allright
I dream I'm brave
Tryin' to overcome my weakness
You won't defeat me
Hear my heart
You don't have to be this careless
No matter what
But I'm telling you it says nothing about you
It says more about their lack of emotional intelligence
And I know that life isn't always fair, so what
You just need to get back up and dust up your shield and try again
And maybe again
If you're being uptight
And got nothing to relate to
I'm telling you that in time things will just go away
And I will show you sunshine
And how to appreciate life
Yeah I will remember you to be strong everyday
Leave it alone better hold on tight
Be who you are
Get back up and try
When they make you feel that you don't belong
No matter what stay strong
Gotta keep your head up high
Don't give into people's lies
No, just shine
Soon there'll be a brighter day
Come and chase those clouds away
Just smile
Just smile pretty baby
When tiger hearts burn bright
They'll make you fight a good fight
The sun will not always shine for your everyday
Just lead the way don't be shy
And lift your head up way high
Even when you think you lose your faith along the way
Leave it alone better hold on tight
Be who you are
Get back up and try
When they make you feel that you don't belong
No matter what stay strong
Gotta keep your head up high
Don't give into people's lies
No, just shine
Soon there'll be a brighter day
Come and chase those clouds away
Just smile
I'm telling you to always smile my love
From where it all started
You haven't changed you stayed the same
So strong and bravehearted you would never ask for more
You make a difference in people's lives
I have said it all before
And so many other times
I'm sure your daddy would be proud of you
If he could see the good things you do
You're just like twins
So much alike
I'm sure he would have loved you
Each and every day he would have made sure
That you would feel safe and be allright
Despite the pain and broken heart
And all that weight on your shoulders
You'll survive just where you are
Even when it gets colder
Regardless of your long time fears
You have the power to sooth your soul
When you smile behind your tears
I wish he could see it all
I'm sure your daddy would be proud of you
If he could see the good things you do
Just like twins, so much alike
I'm sure he just would have loved you
Each and every day he would have made sure
That you would feel safe and be allright
And he would tell you
Always be proud of who you are
Don't let anyone put you down
Bad things are always are going to happen
In your innocent way
Remind me how it should be
Your love I can trace
In a wide open space
Though your beautiful face I see
It's the way you walk
And the way that you talk to me
You're God's gift to my world
The prettiest girl
And I feel like I live a dream
The silence I fear
Peace 'till the morning sun
Just hold me now
I stay here all night cause I
Don't feel so alone when you are
Holding me tight love
The things you do and say
Always go hand in hand
You're all you seem to be
Not a shred of you pretends
I will run like a fool
Just to be by your side
Don't hold back my love
You're my joy in this sad sad world
You are safe with me
Dream and you will be free
Just hold me now
I stay here all night cause I
Don't feel so alone when you are
Holding me tight love
My beatin' heart and restless mind in war
My eyes half closed
On my way back home
To a place that no one knows
I travel light
No more starless nights
Makes me shine from head to toe
I got places to go
In this life
I've got places to go
Anytime
What's yours ain't mine anymore
But somehow the roads I travel
They feel like home right now
My eyes half closed
On my way back home
To a place that no one knows
I travel light
No more starless nights
Makes me shine from head to toe
I got places to go
In this life
I've got places to go
Anytime
And if I could have it my way
I'll tell you to stay here always
And I will be waiting for you
And there's nothing else I can do
You've takin' me over
Just hold me now
I stay here all night cause I
Don't feel so alone when you are
Holding me tight love
Ain't my home
Anymore
Who will I have to be
For you to be the one
So we can start a fire
Until the day comes
I'll be waiting here
If it takes forever
I will look to see
What lies ahead of me
Oh baby, when I hear your voice
It's leaving me breathless
You're giving me no other choice
So baby I'll just let you know
I'm keepin' my heart for later
I'm keepin' my soul alive
And I will wait a lifetime
Until it's you and I
I'm keepin' my heart for later
I'm keepin' my soul alive
And I will wait a lifetime
Until it's you and I
Anywhere you wonder
Anywhere you go
I promise I will stay
Boy, I love you so
There will be a time
When all the waiting's done
And doubts will disappear
They will be one by one
'Cause every time we hang it's getting stronger
Walking around for another day
Please wait a little while to my ache's away
Can you do that for me
It's been a few weeks but it still hurts like forever
And there is only one way for us to be together
Give me some time to ease my soul
And baby after that
Let the good times roll
I almost ain't got no more tears to fall down
I gotta be right this time and get my feet on the ground
I almost ain't got no more tears to fall down
I gotta be right this time and get my feet on the ground
Baby if you're willing to wait a bit longer
'Cause every time we hang it's getting stronger
Baby let me be who I wanna be
So I can fall to your feet
Now I can do that for ya
I almost ain't got no more tears to fall down
I gotta be right this time and get my feet on the ground
I almost ain't got no more tears to fall down
I gotta be right this time and get my feet on the ground